I am procrastinating, I know it and I admit it.
When I decided to do this, I figured it would be kind of easy to devise a simple idea, and at least write out a basic and sturdy plot.
Having read a thousand books -probably more- I think I thought it would be straight path. Not to say I thought writing was easy, just that I knew enough to have the basics down. I was so wrong. I apologize profusely to all writers. I was an idiot. This will not surprise most of my readers. -Ha, beat you to it.-
I have however, surprised myself, and I am quite close to the finish line. I am on target, -today anyways- and I think I will be able to finish. Two days ago I thought I would finish strong. HA! Wrong again! This final week I am taking stock of what I have so far. I am no longer feeling strong. There are weak points, things that need to be written that I just don’t have the answers for yet. I look all around me for inspiration, but I only have so much time left. I find I am loosing steam.
I noticed that I am driven by my word count. Day after day, it’s the only tangible reminder that I am moving forward. That all this time is not wasted. Rather than inspiration pushing me it’s the count. The numbers can be honest and brutal, in a way a person might not.
I am stubborn, and I need to be right now. I will finish. I am thankful to watch the numbers going up. This has been a much different adventure than expected. I am so thankful to my friends and family who have listened and encouraged. I can not do this without you! Thank you for being there through the confusion and the ups and downs. I am wishing you all a Happy Thanksgiving!
*330 word post By the way*