Hello my faithful followers! It has been awhile hasn’t it? I’ll tell you the truth, I got stuck. I got dragged into the ebb and flow of the daily. I went crazy with my idea of participating in the NaNoWriMo and the give away. I loved it. Truly I did! It’s just a lot to take on. I was overwhelmed with all of the books I have to review, keeping up with my lovely children, school and housework.
They don’t amount to much on paper but let me tell you, those waves are huge. I am an all or nothing kind of person. I can tell you, that isn’t all its cracked up to be. Sure its fun, when you’re all in, but when you’re drained and not interested in anything, its no fun at all. Because you see I want to be interested, invested and involved, it’s just that there’s nothing to push the want into doing. When that happens I hide. All of those things I want to do and don’t do make me feel guilty and lame.
I haven’t read a book in a good three weeks! That kills me. The worst part is all those things that overwhelm me also fill me up with energy. It’s a self control and balance issue if I am honest. Being that honest is tough. As a Christian I know that self control glorifies God. I also know He created me just the way I am. Knowing I would go through this and as I walk through it I learn to lean on Him. In my weakness, His strengths are shown in me, and that my friends is a good thing!
This past weekend was such a blessing and a recharge for my family and I! We escaped to the coast for a day of play and good seafood. Monday was spent on responsibilities that had been weighing us down. Now I look up and there’s no fog or weight. I am still tired. The kids like to wake me up and see what I can handle without breaking. I can sense though that I am ready to be in the game again. Maybe not quite as all in, I am trying to learn some lessons here! I hope you’ll stick with me and we can learn and grow together. After all, we are bound by our commonalities, I think we can help each other out. What do you do for a recharge?